Tuesday, March 25, 2008
These are my two best friends. My husband aka Cowboy and my dog Daisy. (I have written a little about Daisy in my Saturday editions go read my archives and check them out. There is quite a story about how she came to live with us.)
This morning as I was reading (I started with the 23 Psalm because I think today is the 23. I am not sure) And then I read Psalm 24 God made(claims) the earth and everything in it. Who can climb to the mountain of God? Who can scale the wholy north face? Only the clean handed, only the pure in heart. (the Message) Oh I pray to be clean handed and pure in heart. Because I know and I realize that all the stuff that goes on (the good and the bad) that I can only trust in God to see me through. He gives me strength. He gives me patience. And somedays I can only find Joy in Him. And that is when it is the hardest. Somedays the only thing that is tangible that I can touch and see and feel are my two best friends. It is through them that I see God's love. His patience. His peace.
I realized this morning while I was reading that God had indeed answered a pray. (I don't think I am totally ready to write about it but.)
This thing that was/is going on has totally broken my heart. It has been a burden to me. I didn't happen or start yesterda,or the day before. It was almost 2 years ago. And it still continues. It still lingers. It still hurts. A while back God lead me to Psalm 34:18 The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. I realized this morning that as I prayed he would fix this situation. That he would make everything right. The way I wanted everything to be. (And ultimately the way God intended) To give me back what I needed. I knew that making everything right would heal my heart. But that is not what he did. What he did was he filled me with Peace. And quite possibly a little patience. But the Peace is the part that I needed. It wasn't what I wanted. In my hurt and my pain I did ask for Peace. But it really wasn't what I wanted. But that is what I have. Peace to make it through this situation. Peace to rest and not grow weary. To trust in him even though I don't understand. I wait. I long. But I am not longing.
Yesterday I read my Bible. On Sunday I read. Sunday is usually the day that I choose the verse I intend to work on for the week. I wasn't able to find one. Doesn't that sound silly? I mean look at it the Bible is a big book. Lots of verses to choose. But I couldn't find the right one. Then this morning while I was thinking about the Peace that God has given me. I heard a song on the Chrisitian music channel it was by a new group (at least new to me) Cadia. The song is Trust in me now. (I am trying to download it or at least get the lyrics. Please check back. It is amazing) I went to thier myspace to down load it and here is what I found.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. —Philippians 4:6-7
I mentioned awhile back about my journey to remembering and memorizing scripture. I realized I have so much scripture buried in my head but I don't know where it is. I think this is one of those. So it should be easy to remember this week especially since I have already lost two days. But I believe that this is the verse that my God, my Father wanted me to remember this week.
Today I have peace, I have joy, I have patience (just barely) and I have Thankgsiving because I know that my God does care and I know that he does heal the broken hearted.
Do not be anxious about anything,but in everythin,by prayer and petition,with thanksgiving,present your requests to God. and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.