On My Heart

I am glad you stopped in. . . I am bearing my soul to you. 

You are here this moment in time because something or someone sent you here. 

I have prayed for you.  I have wanted you to come here.  God has brought you here to this place to be encouraged.  Or maybe to be the encourager. 

It is difficult to bear your soul.  It is difficult to put into words the feelings that I want to share with you.  I am praying that the words that are written here come from God . . .

Our House is Divided



This Christmas my Cowboy will not see his mother.  He will not see his brother or his sister. 
My grandson will not see his Great Grandmother.  



As I think about my MIL's home I wonder if her couch looks similar to this.  It's not in an abandoned garage but I have a feeling that the autmosphere in here home is similar.  I have a feeling she is 'alone' at least during the days before Christmas. 

Her son and daughter may come into town.  Or she may go to spend some time with them. 

But she won't be with us.  She won't welcome a visit from my Cowboy.   Even though we live 10 minutes away.

And the biggest Christmas wish he has I can't give.  

Through no real fault of his he is isolated from His family. 

Circumstances have torn His/our family apart.  Yes we have made mistakes.  We've  all made mistakes.  The sadness is in that no one wants to forget or forgive.  

No one seems to want to . . .



I can't put the pieces back together.    I have prayed for an answer. 




I see Cowboy in my minds eye alone.  I see the rest of his family alone in their bitterness and anger. 

I pray for hope.  I pray that God will someday shine some light down and wake up their spirits to His love and His grace. 

And that they will give each other grace. 

I don't talk to Cowboy about it.  There are sometimes you can't bring up things that are so hurtful. 

I light a candle and pray. 

The flickering light of a candle makes me smile.  I love the automosphere of a room filled with candles. 

And in the quietness I pray. 

And I pray for you.  I pray that if you came by here that God wants you to know that someone loves you. 

Maybe your House is Divided.  I pray that you can bridge the gap and bring your family together. 

I pray that if it is out of your hands 'right now' that God will open the doors for restoration. 

I pray you feel God's precense.   I pray God answers your prayers.

I would love it if you prayed for my family.  I would love to pray for your family.